the quiet anarchist

Here is the bottom for me and not everyone will like it. But its how I really honestly feel. I'll start by saying this: There is a method for finding out what is good for you versus what is bad for you called "Kinesiological testing." I believe in it. I think its easy to trick yourself with it, so its not foolproof, but if you do it right its accurate and the basic premise is this:

Things that are good for you make you feel strong and things that are bad for you make you feel weak.

Its that simple. Its really good to be aware of this when making decisions. Its good with relationships too. And its possible to get really out of touch with this, to your own detriment.

If I spend all day drawing or sculpting I feel great. I feel really alive. Same as if I spend all day hiking or canoeing out in the wilderness. Also going to a party and having interesting conversations with people leaves me feeling great as well.

But after I spend a long time either playing a video game or being online I always feel like shit. And not only that, if I am in the woods for a week and not online, when I come back and go online, I feel a little warning feeling, like "this is going to be icky. don't do it."

But I do it anyway. Because its like an addiction. Now you might say "Oh its different strokes for different folks, the internet might not be good for you but for other people its really nourishing."

I don't know about that. I think maybe there is some truth to it, or maybe not. I mean lots of people are addicted to meth or crack and I think it would be hard to make the case that its only bad for some people. But then again, there are lots of different kinds of addictions like food and sex that are in and of themselves good things, but for some people become addictions.

But anyway, for me its an energy sink. Somehow drawing or sculpting energizes me, even though I put a lot of energy into it, but somehow I get more back. But being online sucks my energy.

It starts out being about me just doing research in order to satisfy my seemingly insatiable curiosity and also the desire to connect with people that have my same interests. So that is primarily why I use the internet. And I have been able to connect with interesting people and have had many inspiring conversations.

Those are good things. So what about it makes me feel icky? I don't know exactly what it is it just does.

I really do think its related to what I said in the previous post, its about mineral intelligence using human consciousness as an energy source. There is some type of parasitism going on. We are being drawn into this network and hoodwinked into expressing more and more of our being electronically. I don't think it serves us. I think the cost benefit analysis does not come out in our favor. I mean "us" as human beings. Flesh blood and spirit.

It makes me sick. It makes me feel icky. So I can't do it. That's why I deleted my blogs. Its nothing against anybody I have connected with, its the medium. The meduim makes me feel sick. The medium is the massage. Its a massage that makes me feel icky, like some creepy person sneaks up behind me and gives me a back rub that makes me feel repulsed.

So why go back? After deleting my blogs, I freed up time and space in my life that opened up ways of expressing my creativity that has led to face to face connections with people, and real opportunities that are improving my quality of life and actual fulfillment.

So I am going back to what I said originally, when I deleted Free Range Organic Human. I want to focus on art and putting it online only to say "I am having this show, this is the address, here is the website for the gallery. I wrote this article, this book, here it is on Amazon." That's all.

Freedom on the March

Great Now that freedom is on the march and democracy is spreading lets get together with all the other nuclear powers and start getting rid of nuclear weapons!!!!

I'd be willing to bet if put to a vote most people in the wold would prefer to live in a world without nuclear weapons. Isn't democracy great?

You get to vote on what you would like your country to do.....oh wait a minute....